Abell 85 reflects my underingstanding the discovery of one of the largest black holes while processing personal issues and coping with the loss of my mother to cancer. The size and scope of the universe, from the microcosm of a Plank length
to the macrocosm of a parsec, has fascinated me my entire life and raised questions about where we humans find our place in this universe and how it all affects us.
After the loss of my mother, this place was destabilized for me, and I asked myself again what we are as humans and how we can comprehend all this.
As one approaches the black hole in the galaxy cluster Abell 85, time slows down until it eventually stands still. For me, this mirrors the time period before my mother's death. In the
beginning it lies in the far distance, and one moves unhurriedly through life. Then the first turbulences appears, your voice becomes slower and more frail, actions fade until a helplessness sets in and time seems to stand still, as a loved one lies motionless before you, surrounded by machines and tubes. There is no way back and the realization sets in that it is too late for a way out, and finally you are swallowed whole.
This memory is burned into one’s memory and stands timelessly in the infinite space, like the echo of what has been lost on the outer edges of the Schwarzschild radius. This echo must be preserved, remembered and
never forgotten.

The music on this album came directly from all these feelings, the lightness before the death, the apprehension of diagnoses, the speechlessness, the stagnation and finally the loss. Most of all, the music emerged from the grief and sadness and the attempts of coping with what has happened, because in the end, time can never stand still for us.

At the same time, the comparison of my music with this massive black hole, and astronomy in general, is no coincidence. In the course of my musical work over all these years, I always envisioned my music as something out there. As long as I can remember I was fascinated by physics and how our universe is built and functions. It gives me joy, even in hard times, to think about what is out there, and our human intelligence can glimpse and understand only a tiny fraction of the universe’s mystery. It always reminds me of what our
brains are capable of. Therefore, the context for my music is not only bound by our daily lives on earth, but by the fascination that lies in the natural sciences and how the world works the way it does, at least what we can know about it.
All this has been transformed, into these songs, at the same time intentionally and unconsciously, and have formed from the fragments collected over five years. At the same
time, this album forms a new story that tells the transformation of my music and that of music in general changing over the course of time.
From software and hardware-based composition to the loss and recovery of the digital, through the analog process, to the fragmentation and recombination of ideas and sounds. In
accordance with the fluctuations of my feelings at this time, this album is not genre bound and the sound oscillates, creating a mixture of ideas and the modernization of my music.

Finally, the birth of my daughter changed this process again and guided it ina more intentional and professional direction, that led me to have this album professionally mixed and mastered by Dino Spiluttini.